-- The person you like and why you like them --

My wonderful boyfriend Jason <3. He is amazing, kind, caring, funny, patient, loving, sweet, wonderful, thoughtful, gentle, and passionate.  He understands me better than anyone else I have ever known.  
 
-- How have you changed in the past 2 years? --

Oh boy, a lot is an understatement.  I was ending my sophomore year, which had its good times, but was my worst year academically.  Which was because I finally was taking advantage of the freedom of being on my own and was influenced negatively by certain people I considered friends at the time.

I did however become really good friends around this time, with someone whom I love very much. <3

I basically learned some really hard lessons in 2009; the primary one being to not care at ALL about what anyone thinks about you, except those who you care about, like friends and family. 
 
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved. 
The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, 
some people just don't care back.
And it's not the end of the world.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, 
and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, 
but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself 
to the best others can do, 
but to the best you can do.
I've learned that it's not what happens to people,
It's what they do about it.
I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, 
there are always two sides.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. 
It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can't.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done
regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, 
but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't five me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to 
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, 
but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean that they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.
I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally different.
I've learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing,
as well as talking,
can ease emotional pains.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life
are taken from you too soon.
I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice
and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I've learned to love
and be loved.
I've learned...

-Omer B. Washington

I wish I could say I wrote this, but alas I did not.  But it spoke to me and says so many things that I think and feel.  Have a great day.
 
Thank you.  SO much.

All it took to make me feel infinitely better was one simple, unexpected text message.  It really means so much to me. <3

And that I have so many supportive friends who can be happy for me too! <3

It's all new and unknown to me.  But it's so AWESOME. :)
 
So I'm blogging about happy things because I pretty much had a horrible day.

Ok, so these are good Christmas (yes, I know it's a little late for this) or birthday ideas.  I was stupid and bought the wrong size shirt when I saw Muse back in March...so here's the other shirt I want to replace it lol.
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I also really like this necklace.  I just wish I knew about how large the pendant was and how long the chain is...but I like it just the same.
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They both can be purchased at Muse's US Shop (under 2010 Merch) found at this link: http://muse.shop.bravadousa.com/Dept.aspx?cp=9321_34264

Ugh.  So it's exam week, and I only have one more exam left, on Friday, so I have tomorrow off.  And then I get to have an epically amazing time next week in St. Augustine and everywhere in between with an equally epically amazing person.

I can't wait! Have a great day.
 
More song lyrics!  This time from a beautiful song that quite accurately describes my mood. :)

"See my feet on the ground
But it feels like the world's gravity drowned
When I'm with you I'm high

Instead of hiding my face
My mind's in your eyes
Can your love embrace
Me as I am

In the silence you stare at the world
Your eyes are screaming to be heard
I want to learn you inside out

Time isn't on our side
All we have now
For the rest of our lives
Let's stay up all night

In the silence you stare at the world
Your eyes are screaming to be heard
I want to learn you inside out

All that changes is time
Can't keep you inside of me
You're out of my mind
I wear you on my sleeve

In the silence you stare at the world
Your eyes are screaming to be heard
I want to learn you inside out

I see all that you want to be
Look into your soul
Looking right back at me
I want to learn you inside out"

- Lifehouse "Learn You Inside Out"

Have a great day.
 
It's always hard to say goodbye.  Especially to your best friend.  Forever.

Today I lost my best friend of 11 years.  Sadie May, you will be dearly missed, and I love you so very, very much.  You were the best dog for our family, and a major part of it.
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While we may have had our disagreements, like when you had your doggie PMS moments, but you were always my companion, best model, and protector.  Even if you and I were kind of on the outs after you snapped at me a few weeks ago, I still loved you, and always will.

You may have been afraid of thunder and lightning, the wood floors, and Daddy's "angry" voice, but you certainly were brave.  You were strong through 4+ years of breast cancer.  You battled it down till the final day, not letting it get you down until a few weeks ago.

I'm going to miss my "pretty puppy", "fluffy stuff the puff", "Sagey", and every other stupid, cutesy name we called you, that you still answered to.

You were always ready for "SUPPER!!!" and snackies and treats.  We spoiled you so much in the later years, even allowing you to become nearly an inside dog.

No matter how long I had been preparing myself for this day (since they day I learned she had cancer), its no easier to bear.  I miss you Sadie, and I love you.

Have a great day.
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RIP Sadie (5/99-11/10)
 
Not really a blog post...but I wanted to post these song lyrics and I already have song lyrics in my status on Facebook, so here I am. XD

"Well, I know it's kind of late
I hope I didn't wake you
But what I got to say can't wait
I know you'd understand
Ev'ry time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong
So I'll have to say I love you in a song
Yeah, I know it's kind of strange
But ev'ry time I'm near you
I just run out of things to say
I know you'd understand
Ev'ry time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong
So I'll have to say I love you in a song."

- Jim Croce "I'll Have to Say I Love You in a Song"

I miss you particularly tonight, and pray you miss me too.  Have a great day.